I Am

I am...a devoted mother, lucky wife, & a goofball most of the time.
I think...I am blessed.
I want…to see the world in black and white, no matter how grey it is.
I have...everything I need.
I miss…my little brother.
I fear...letting myself down.
I feel...grateful for the “old soul” that I call mine.
I hear...silence, the boys are tucked away sleeping.
I smell...wassail.
I crave…peace in an unsettled world.
I cry...when I’m uncertain of the future.
I search...for ways to give back to those who show such kindness.
I wonder...if I’ll ever get back in my size 8’s.
I regret...letting things that don’t matter steal away my time.
I wish...I could buy Jeff a farm with a tractor he could ride on all day.
I love...Jeff’s welcoming arms, Will’s mischievous grin, Grant’s eyes full of hope.
I care...about where I’ve come from, those heroic people I call my ancestors.
I always...try to believe that people have good hearts (and intentions).
I worry...about paying off our debts.
I am not...very good at making friends..I want to, but let fear hold me back.
I remember...all the kindness Jeff’s parents and mine have shown us.
I believe... with work, I can keep the world out of my home.
I sing...to my boys every day, music brings beauty to my life.
I don't always…believe my husband when he tells me I look beautiful.
I argue...too much about things that have no meaning.
I write...for work, pleasure, and to relieve a full heart.
I lose...discouragement when I hold my sons in my arms.
I listen...to my boys laughter and feel whole.
I can usually be found...at home with my family.
I need...to prove to myself that I can finish what I’ve started.
I forget...that God is with me every day.
I am happy...for each of you I call family and friends.

Tag...you're it.

Oregon in October

First Trip to Oregon

Well...for all of us except Jeff. In October, we packed up the boys and Grandma Stevens and went to Oregon to see Suz, Bret, & kids. We had such a great time and fell in love with the land. Oregon is truly breathtaking! I loved the coast..especially eating fresh fish. The Garcia's live out in the country. We went to pumpkin patches, outdoor farmers markets, the Mennonite Bakery, Eugene, the coast, etc. The most beautiful site though was definitely the drive from Bend to Eugene. I wish I got more pictures! We will definitely have to go back soon. Thanks Bret & Suz!!

Potty Training 101

Oh my...I feel like a pretty bad mom tonight. I am getting ready to potty train Will. He is showing all the signs and I had it planned for this next week. So tonight...Jocelyn, Dan & little Mailon were over for Christmas cookies and Will kept dancing around. He was whining...upset...etc. I thought he just needed to go number 2. He has a hard time doing that and it takes him a long time. So...after about an hour I decided to just take him in and see what he did. If you have ever seen that scene out of League of Their Own with Tom Hanks...you'll know how it went. The poor kid went forever. I felt like such a bad mom!! I had no clue he was holding it!
Anyhow, if my son ends up on antibiotics for a bladder infection...we'll all know why!